A Moral Confession II

It is the second part of 'The Moral Confession'.

Yes, the new alok was born! If rahul, rajesh, ravi, abhishek, rishi, aparna, somuya, pallavi, neha could do it why could not I? Probably it was the first time in my life I witnessed the strength of positive attitude। I started taking interest in my classes। I started solving sums. I found that it was not difficult to synchronizing with the teachers. The class was full of dumb students and the teachers really tried hard to help them, to make them understand. I was better than few of them and started picking up pace. I was changing and it had become a source of happiness for me. Though I tried really hard to get noticed by the teachers, it was very difficult. They always had time for the toppers or the dumbos. Mediocres were neglected. I do not blame them I had not done anything praiseworthy as Hrithik Roshan of koi mil gaya did(told some DOS command to his teacher which was not taught to him). And the day I asked my father to buy a new pen for me he was surpried. I hardly demanded any stationery in the last five years. I did not demand even sketch pens as most of the kids do in their kindergartens. At that time Reynolds was launched and I had a crush on it. After all I started studying!! My family members noticed the change within me. Though they did not tell anything I knew they were happy with it.


One day my English teacher called me to the staff room. She was our class teacher. It was the 4th day of the month and I knew that she would discuss my academic report with me. At the end of every month, our respected teachers used to give feedbacks to our class teacher and on the basis of these feedbacks she used to evaluate our class performance. And then one week before parents-teachers meet she used to discuss the report with us. It was her routined job. She wanted to keep an eye on our class performance. Being a class teacher it was her duty and she performed it pretty well. I knew she would diliver the same old speech. "Importance of Education in Our Life." In the last 2 years, I had heard it 20 times. I was quite nervous. As my last encounter with her were not inspiring. She always showed a great concern for our academics. And I did not like it. If I was not doing my maths assignment; why she was getting perturbed? I used to do her assignment religiously. I always wanted to get a good impression in her eyes. I do not know why? But she was the only teacher who made education a sensible thing for me. I could never understand the benefits of education. But she proved its strength for me. I praised her but I was not impressed to such an extent that I had started following her footsteps. Sorry!! I was not prepared for it. The time when she used to talk to me about my academics, a nuclear power plant was installed within me. Her socio-moral lectures were not less than feasible uranium. Its uncontrolled chain reaction filled me with a sense of accountability. I started considering myself as the most important identity of the world. I could visualise my involvement in all sort of development projects. This world could not exist without my presence.It could not progress without my involvement. After every meeting I tried to be sincere and honest. I wanted to contribute to the society. But it was really a tough job. After two days the same old story. All inspirations were vapourised. My friends used to tell me that moral lectures were the most volatile object. I do not know were they right or not? But these lectures can be absorbed easily when it is mixed with a pinch of shame.
I had no another option. So I went to the staff room.
"May I come in mam" I asked.
"oh!!! allllooook come in." She said.
"How are you doing?" She asked.
"mam meeeee...." I asked.
"Yes you!!" she said.
"Mam actually I am feeling well from last few days." I said.
"Why"she asked "I have heard something about you."
"maammm about myself!!!" I said. I was very nervous.
"Alok I am talking to you; am not I?" she interrogated.
"This time teachers have told me that you were taking interest in their classes. You are also doing your assignments regularly." she said.
"But mam!! I always do your assignments. I have written all the essays and letters." I said excitedly.
"yes because you think that I am your class teacher and if you do not complete my assignments, I'll inform your parents about your irregularity." She said. "look, I have every information. What are you doing in others class...what are in doing in recess time ...everything."
I wanted to tell that that it was not the fear of my parents but her attitude which was forcing me to do her assignments. But I could not tell it. I did not know how to say these lines.
After that she informed me about my feedbacks she had got from other teachers. I could witness that she was not complaining. She was happy from the changed alok but she did not want to pronounce it. As it could lead to complacency. But her eloquent smile had communicated everything to me. I was very happy as it was my target to impress my teachers and on the top my english teacher and I had succeeded. Mission Acomplished.